Being Human

DISCLAIMER: The following note doesn't dwell on Salman Khan’s Being Human brand in any aspect and the views are solely mine based on real events from different lives of people i came across.


Sometimes, we come across that one moment, when we can’t comprehend what we’re going through. For a moment, everything is just fine and you think you can cope up with the news you were told. You think its not a big deal and you can overcome the ordeal easily. But then it slowly dawns upon you. It slowly pinches you and says, “You dear, have lost the game”. Its still an oblivion, a limbo one can say, when the first moments of the wretched news reach your ears. Your brain takes time in processing the information. “Oh, so what i failed…there’s still hope”, says the wiser part of brain just to avoid the hullabaloo of your animal self that would soon erupt and try to endure all the pain. The conscious mind understands it well. It takes time. And the adrenaline is released to avoid too much of anxiety and pain at such events. The human brain, thus manages for a moment to keep you off the pain.


But then few moments pass. You dwell on that matter. You go back to thinking where it all went wrong. And then you go revisit the past, how much you invested in it, how badly you wanted it and the present just doesn’t fit well with you. You start to avoid it now. You start to question the logic behind all that happened. And then when you can’t find any answers, you erupt. The inner self can take it no more. It needs to be heeded, to be comforted and would want to do anything that can make you escape what you’re going through.


Alas! there’s no escape gate from this stage. You should go through that fire. Burn till all your hopes turn to ashes and are consumed totally by the reality. Burn till your murky older self is lost and the lustrous and strong being emerges. Burn till you can burn no more. And then, what comes out the fire is the strongest self you’ve ever been. Now you look back at the events and make peace with it. Accept that it was never yours and move forward. Make new goals. Strive for it again. And thus, again you subject yourself to that one moment which can take your breath away, and can project into oblivion. But this time, you are more stronger, more wiser and know that you can emerge as a winner no matter what.


And that’s what i call, BEING HUMAN is!

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Are you crushing on someone?

Well,did anyone of you laughed like an idiot to almost nothing funny?Did anyone feel hyper-ventilated while even talking/chatting with someone?Did anyone feel like an idiot and still laugh over it?Did anyone's heart started beating faster with each advancing step of someone special?
               Hell, yeah? Well,here's the right place for you to bitch!
 Seriously, i never thought i would be saying this-"its really hard to talk with a guy/gal when you are crushing on them without letting yourself look like an idiot"
Finally! I said it!
               Actually;this feels sick,delirious and a dozen mixed feelings all at a time bringing a Deja-Vu of your 10th grade(i used 10th grade because most people start having crushes once they are 14/15).All sorts of rational thoughts and maturity just vanishes into thin air and delusions begin to swarm in the brain,creating it utmost difficult to have anything sensible producing in mind.I wonder if it is the hormones or delirium.

       And the worst part is when you get the most awaited chance of talking with the guy/gal you just prove yourself to be a big idiot....; sweeping all the fantasies off the mind and bringing all the hopes to dust.This could be just me thinking aloud...but i reckon it also happens with a lot many normal people.
 
 What not do we feel for them to come walking towards us and talk?And how shitty do we feel when we mess it up!Not to mention the stupidity of searching his name in Google(in my case) just to find something new about him.....to amuse myself.Many people even imagine to marry their crushes(some piece of information i got when i read a blog long time ago).

Of course its not love..but still,its something which plays with your guts.Its a Crush-i think i get it now-they crush us with our feelings and leave us injured and wounded...well..for a little period of time.

All these things are even better compared to being committed(considering the -ve values of being committed-no offence to  those lovers who think "love is the best thing that ever happened to them")

 But when this fuss stops; and you turn back and  look at that hyper-ventilating ,freakish behavior of yours-i bet you will laugh over it.

     

Cheers to the freakiest,funniest, crushing moments of our life.

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dealing with results by reading about amor deliria nervosa

Spending days of sleepless nights and giving exams is rather easier than waiting for the result...especially when you are expecting something out of your hard work.


it feels like butterflies are flying in the stomach and you start praying to the almighty for everything to come out as expected.the moment internet browser starts to load the page, my heart beats faster than it should and makes loud noises which i fear someone might hear.and when the internet connection is slow, the torture is too much to take.i, at times fear i might collapse;but no,i have to remain strong.and it will be the most annoying moment when your friend calls and talks nonchalantly and at the end of the conversation you find out that results will be out some other day.annoying-because you've got to put up with all that distress once again.why am i saying this?because today is my D-day.results are going to be out and few people think its not today.and i seriously don't know what to do.


Well,to keep myself  preoccupied from last two days  i've been reading lauren oliver's Delirium and its sequel Pandemonium.Oliver has really done a great job and we can see it in her works.the world she describes presumes and proves that love is a disease and it should be cured,else people die when infected.there are many rules for the uncureds(people who are not yet cured of for amor deliria nervosa: scientific term for love).people can be cured only when they reach the age of 18 because children under 18 when undergo the procedure for the cure can have bad effects and sometimes it wouldn't even work.our protagonist Lena gets infected with amor deliria nervosa and tries to escape to the Wilds(place where invalids-the resistors for the system live) with her boy-friend Alex.but at last only she makes it till the Wilds with Alex sacrificing himself for her safety.

The second book-Pandemonium revolves around Lena trying to survive in the Wilds and joining the Resistance.she here meets Julian who is the head of DFA-deiria free america -an association which encourages or rather forces the uncureds to take up the cure and falls in love with him.two completely opposite characters, who fight together when they are in danger and atlast manage to survive and fall in love.its a beautifully woven story and in many ways different compared to the first part.also the last line of the novel leaves us in awe with the re-appearance of Alex who was presumed dead by Lena. this makes the reader wait for the next part-Requiem.
               

Frankly speaking ,i've enjoyed Pandemonium more than Delirium.the second part has more action thing going on rather than first one where Lena falls in love and starts to feel it and acknowledges that love is not  a disease and if it really  is-then she is glad that she is infected with it.the third part -Requiem will be released in 2013.i am desperately waiting for it.till then......................join the resistance and spread the deliria!!!!