MY FIRST DAY IN COLLEGE

          let me tell u how i felt early during my admission and those two wonderful maiden days in my college.
                           
                   the national institute of technology - durgapur was nothing i have expected  to see.as i embarked with my mother to  get registered  in the hall i have been allotted  with a strange  and alien feeling----homesickness---i was already missing my parents as i could see before laid my future."Sister niveditha hall" the guard told me when i showed my fee book on which "hall-7" was written.though he gave  instructions how to reach there i just remembered half of it.it was too much to take for  the first time. i did not want my mother to carry any of my luggage so i took the laptop and the heavy trolley bag from her and regretted at the very moment why i  brought so much luggage.i wanted to explain to myself the reason but my mind was already preoccupied with most beautiful  memories  spent with my family.meanwhile mom was asking some one about the hall.we got clear instuctions --or my mother got.i just followed her blindly not wanting to speak anything for if i spoke i would be emotional and make my mother cry.i didnt want the fuss in the public--so i followed.when we went little further there was a board written MAHILA HOUSE.i was delighted to see a beautiful four storeyed building as a hostel for girls.my mother asked a woman if that is our destination and the answer was regrettably-NO.hall7- is still inside the road.so we walked further.i was amazed-let me tell you; to see a building built in late 80's and a small dukaan whose roof is nothing but  a sheet of blue canvas tied to the adjacent trees.

few girls in their knickers buying something from the dukaan.at the very sight i began to understand what my life is going to be here.at iit -my brother said they have a big canteen and a separate night canteen-maybe i should no longer live in my dreams.i sighed and went inside the hall and there were few papers i had to fill.the warden there was excited to see me as if she knew who i am-i picturised the whole scene as a victim entering a bhoot bungalow where a vampire i s desperately waiting for me to drink my blood as soon as my mother leaves me here--speaking of vampires.. I LOVE EDWARD CULLEN.who won't??!!!

                                   i entered the room i have picked in the chits randomly.two people were already in and they didnt expect any other student and they kept false smiles of welcome hiding hatred of one and surprise of other.i immediately understood that my life is going to be tough here."oh you are from andhra?four other girls are there -shall i call them?"said one of them.i didnt want any attention so i replied"no,dont disturb them;i will meet them later".but before i completed my sentence the girl ran for them.other one is simply giving a meek smile which said"yeah shez always like that"my mother was relieved to find four girls from our place and me---well i dont know , i was unable to think anything relevant.i was staring at my mother and knew im gonna miss her the most.i wondered where dad had been.he said he would be there with mom's lugggage.it was noon and somehow  i didnt observe it,maybe bcoz of the weather there or bcoz of my apprehension.
                                                   i felt like an alien and when dad came there i clinged to him never wanting the moment to pass.im going to miss my dad which is not at all a new thing but still  that felt so bad-bad enough to want to cry and go home.but that would be an act of cowardice-three years of stress to get admission in a national level college-(i dont know if dgp is worth my stress at that moment).so i blocked all my thoughts and pretended everything is alright though i was scared to hell.mom and dad left in the evening to retire in a guesthouse and said i can call them anytime which   knew im not going to do when im sane for if i do i would cry out loud and scare their wits off.so i kept calm.as it was a saturday my roomies were bored to death not knowing what to do c.oz the LAN connection shortly failed before my arrival. i covered myself with the blanket and laid on the steel bed which is rusted and i am sure it must be older than me!now i really wanted to call my brother and when i  took my phone there were no signals.i felt like thrashing the phone but i was still sane enough not to perform such an act.that night passed somehow coz  its really difficult now to tell you people what i felt in that dungeon